did what i had to..

Smoke made me fly in the sky,
Up i went n soared high,
Ecstacy filled my blood,my nerves,
For quick elation it sure serves.

With Depressed life and lost hope,
Had a saddened soul with no scope,
To up my spirits i began to dope.

Bloodshot eyes,slurred speech,
But satisfaction it did impeach,
Just as things looked out of reach,
Thought of giving life this breach.

But what could i do when weaned
From the affection that i need
What i did was act of defiance,
A bravado it seemed to me.

Finally it was my own call,
With no remorse or regret,
I feel what i wanted i did get,
Adages they showered on me,
What i did ,did with glee.